So...I have been feeling a little (or maybe a lot) Blah lately. I just can't seem to get it together. I have had a headache EVERY day for over a week now. It's totally bringing me down. I don't feel like doing anything. The rain finally went away....and now it is supposed to come back. Which I'm sure means that there is no end in sight to my headaches. Fabulous. I have a feeling that it all has something to do with the Birthday that is looming closer and closer. I know I just sound silly, but I REALLY don't want to turn thirty. You would think it would be easy. Who cares right? It's just a number. I feel sick about it though. My twenties have been the best time of my life....and I'm just not ready to move on. Honestly, I could cry right now. How freaking sad is that. I am almost thirty and I'm acting like a baby. I have a feeling that you will find me getting good and DRUNK when the big day comes. I can glance at it through my haze!
I have been very short tempered with the kids too, which I feel completely horrible about. I am fine in the morning, but by about 5pm I have had it. After watching, chasing, playing with, cooking for, cleaning up after, calming down, soothing, kissing boo boo's, breaking up potential and actual fights and saying no about 100 times I am at the end of my rope. It always helps to take the kids out side, but Jacob REALLY likes to run in the road or just plain run away. Does anyone have a straitjacket I could borrow??!! Hee Hee!!! That kid is running me ragged. He has more energy than the energizer bunny. I wish there was a way to filter some of it into me. It's sad to say, but I was feeling great when I was exercising, but after 2 months and NO results I QUIT. Maybe my mood is a sign that I really shouldn't have QUIT. I just need to do it. Get back on that treadmill. Pick up those weights. Sounds so easy.....why does it have to be so hard?
On a better note, I got my Lucky Breaks Prize this week!!
I just used it for the first time yesterday. The scent it great!! Chamomile and Lemon Verbena. After shampooing and conditioning my hair I wasn't sure if I was really going to like it though. I felt like my hair was completely dried out, but as the day went on it just got softer and softer. I have never had that happen before. Usually it's the other way around. Pretty nice huh?! The body lotion is great too! It's smells SO good and really moisturizes...too bad they didn't give a body wash!!! All in all...it's a great prize!!!
I didn't give up on Grey's Anatomy. It really is a great show. I can totally see what all the fuss has been about! I am now on disk two of season three. I still miss Denny though :( So sad.
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Right there with you girlie... I totally know how you feel. My patience has been very thin, with the kids, Jon, pretty much everyone I come in contact with... It hasn't been pretty.
I was SO thankful that the sun was shining when I woke up this AM, and I've been sitting here trying to wish the rain away for the past hour or so. Not sure if it's going to work, but the sun DOES keep peeking back out! So we can only hope right?? If you want to, you can always bring the boys down to our yard, we've got like 4 climbing toys now... And we'd love to have you!! :) I'm ALWAYS here... Maybe thats why I'm so depressed :)
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